A Beautiful Thing

To be completely raw with you, I am making myself stay awake and enjoy this rare quiet moment.  When I started this blog, nothing squandered my passion for writing and I would sit down everyday and make myself put something in this big, white, blank box.  My baby was still developing inside of me when I had this brilliant idea to write publicly.  And now, he lays asleep in his crib almost the full length of the mattress at nine and half months old.  I have three children, two dogs, and an amazing husband.  There is only a sliver of time left for me to consume with what I call "my time".

My husband and I will be celebrating nine years of marriage in 2013.  We have been together as a couple for ten years next August.  Really?  Who stole these days, months and years from beneath me.  They are gone, but not forgotten.  The good times made us sweeter, the hard times made us stronger, and the scary, uncertain times pressed us together with a powerful force.  I have written before about how our relationship started and how we fell in love, but our friendship is what has kept us through moments we felt lost and almost unconscious from the blows that life has thrown.

I sit back and look at our life since we met and wonder how we made it here.  Looking at us now, we think we could have done things differently and ended up somewhere else... a better place.  But when I glance over the choices we made,  I wouldn't do anything different.  We have loved, we have laughed, and we have given our all.  No matter where we end up...As long as we have lived life to the fullest, there are no regrets.  We have jumped when we probably should have stayed still.  We have kept the faith when we couldn't see the outcome.  So, the way I see it we have done all we could have.  That is all that matters.

The Lord knows the intents of our hearts.  When our hearts are pure and we desire his perfect will and his perfect peace in our lives...this is a beautiful thing.  Nothing can separate us from Him.  We don't need to worry what others think when our lives don't turn out just like we planned all along.  We just need to trust him and know he sees our heart.  He is working all things together for our good because we love Him.

"For THE WORD OF GOD is quick [Alive; Living], and powerful, and sharper than any twoedged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart." (Heb.4:12)

²⁸ And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, 
who^[a] have been called according to his purpose.  (Romans 8:28)